Friday, August 28, 2015

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She is clothed with fears, she scares of the world outside, they'll hurt her, they'll shoot her down, they'll kill her. She is afraid to be honest about herself, about her feelings, so she has to always keeps silent, keep holding and hiding the feelings she has, because she's scared. so scared, scared until she won't even look at the small hole in the window, she won't even touch even with her finger the coldness of the door to go outside, she's just too scared.

Until one cold night, wind whispers at her ear "let's go out, all good things are free outside, you just need to open your eyes and walk with your feed, everything is awesome outside, you just need to step outside and hear the birds, everything is perfect, you just need to feel it with your eyes open, everything is too good not to be seen" it leaves with nasty feelings, she couldn't help herself from the feelings that drive her strange, the feelings that knock her deepest heart, that break the cold frozen ices in her mind. She wants to look at the small hole at the window, to touch the door with all her hand, but she's scared. She's scared that the wind lies, she's scared that she's not strong enough to be outside, she spends her days thinking.....

a long time has passed, seconds turn to minutes, minutes turn to hours, hours turn to days, and days turn to months, and she finally decides to go out. She holds the door and means to open it slowly and with fear, she finally sees the light outside from the spaces on the door she opens slowly,wide and gets more wide until she sees the outside clearly from the door, so good,awesome, and perfect. She steps her first step outside, walking with eyes closed, slowly, slowly, and slowly. She scares the rocks will fly on her, the trees will fall on her, but she opens her eyes with the words that said by the trees on her mind, she continues, she walks with eyes open, getting fast, fast, faster, and she finally find the rhythm to walk faster, to dance confidently with eyes open, and she tries to open her eyes more wide and look around.



everything was so so so bad, so far from what she imagined before, so far from the winds' words. She scares, she runs back to her door but the door suddenly disappear. She's stuck in the world that she hates, she wants to cry, but even if she cries, will everything change? so she just sits up in a place and won't move because she's trapped.

It is raining and the she closes her eyes, suddenly the rain tells her that she's late, she should go outside right after the wind said she should, before the outside turns bad because the wind sad because the thought of its mind that she won't go outside. Her heart is full of regrets, she regrets that she didn't go outside faster, she cries. Then the storm wipes her tears and whispers. that. the. wind. lies. the outside was never good, it's foul and everybody knows that.

She's in doubt, is the wind lie or is the outside never good? she tries to find out the answers.



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Saturday, August 1, 2015

Inside My Wallet




Hello loves,

I want to tell a story about me last week. It was such an embarrassing moment.
My friend and I planned to meet at Mantos at 4. It was 3:30 and I was just laying on my bed, and haven't prepared myself at all. I haven't even taken a bath while my friend was on her way to the mall.
When I found out that she was already at Mantos, I automatically made my way to the bathroom as fast as I possibly could. I prepared myself in a very fast way. It took about 30 minutes before I could finally said that I was ready to go. Really fast!

I went to the mall by a public car (a.k.a mikro) and I felt really tired because I just noticed that I prepared myself so fast and I probably forgot to breath because breathing takes 1 second, and a second really means a lot when you're late.

When I was about to reach the place, I almost killed myself because I realized that I. forget. to. bring. my. wallet. and I couldn't breath not because breathing took a second but because I was scared as fuck. Another funny fact discovered: breathing is hard when you're scared.


I was so out of words and I didn't even know what to say because I was just simply out of words and I had nothing to say. I wanted to disappear because I didn't know what to do.

and
I
decided to get out from the car and told the truth to the driver........

He was really a nice man, I was lucky that he wasn't mad at me, he told me that it was okay, and instead gave me advice that I shouldn't do kind of things like this later because not everyone was kind and yes he was right.

This accident gave me idea to write this post so now I am going to tell you everything that I keep inside my wallet.

So, here you go.....

so this is how my wallet looks like

the front look and the back look of the wallet

the overview

front look yey

back look

I got this wallet when I walked in the mall and this pink wallet caught up my eyes and I was like "omg look at that cute pink wallet, it is so pink" I couldn't help myself from buying that so.... yeah... another moment buying unimportant thing in life because CUTE and PINK.

This is so cheap, it only costs 100k
I was surprised at first because this wallet was way too cute and it only costed 100k.. like really who doesn't want to buy this cute inexpensive thing?!!!!!!!!

When I open up the wallet, this is what will show up. I love the fact that it has so many spaces for cards or even photos.

the details of the cards spaces and my cards

a place where you can put your money or small changes.

another empty spaces but it filled with my photos

my cards:
Ganesha Operation Student Card
Kartu Tanda Penduduk (Identity Card)
SMA Katolik Rex Mundi Student Card
KFC Music Hitter Card
Kid'z World Card
The Body Shop Member Card



Those are everything that I have inside my wallet

I hope you guys enjoy reading this and would like to read my upcoming posts because

it really means a lot to me, really.


I love you!!!xx

xo,
Monicksp
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My Kind Of Fairytale

Do you believe in castle? do you believe in prince charming? do you believe in enchanting story of life? how about all the flying fairies?do you believe in flying dragons and talking animals? do you believe in happy ending? I do.




I believe in fairytale, I believe in magic stick, I believe in a place where trees grow pink and I believe that we're all queens, we have our own castle, flying unicorns, and our own prince charming.





I don't believe in fairytale the way normal people believe in it, what I really believe is every girl has her own fairytale, her own castle, magics, and a fairy that loves helping her.

Every girl is a princess and she is the main character of her life. No matter what's going through her life, she always has Someone who's gonna help her, not let her fall hard, guide her, protect her................just like the fairy godmother in the fairytale.

Every girl is precious, she needs attention, she needs to make sure that she's loved, she needs friends, and one day she'll find someone that will accept her the way she is. A cooler way, she'll think bad about herself, she'll hate about herself but someone's gonna pick her up and tell her that she's beautiful, she's perfect...................just like prince charming in fairytale.



 My kind of fairytale,
Fairytale is not about magics, fairies, unicorns, or even castle. Fairytale is like a firm belief you have in yourself that you're the main character of your own life, you'll struggle, you'll cry, but in the end, you'll end up find your own happy ending, even it takes a lot of time.

Fairytale inspires me so much, to be braver, to be stronger, and to have courage in whatever I am doing, fairytale makes me learn that I should dream bigger until my dream scares me and to have faith in myself to catch up the dreams.


So, I put  My Kind Of Fairytale on my blog's theme.
It is full a white-pink-themed layout that I customized myself, I made it as simple as possible.
I changed up my blog's name from pink feather to Monic Parengkuan to make it more simple, and I add "read more" on each posts that I posted earlier so everything could be more organized.


Fairytale is such a stupid thing to believe, but put your own interpretation in what fairytale really is so everything could be as beautiful as fairytale itself. This is your life, your fairytale, where God writes best story for you. xxx thanks for reading and have a nice sunday!


xo,
Monicksp  
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